And that's how the "cookie" crumbles...

This has been a horrible two days. Who knew life could crumble so quickly and why didn't that person warn me?

Jake and I are taking a step-back approach in our relationship... going to be less serious. We're not on the fast track to marriage or happily ever after anymore. Guess I'll see if making a serious relationship less serious is possible to do with a live-in boyfriend.

I have suggested some initial ground rules to making a less serious relationship work:

1. Don't tell your boy/girlfriend what to do unless he/she asks for your input. 
2. Don't plan your life around your boy/girlfriend. Do whatever whenever, and if you see your   boy/girlfriend, great, but don't make it a priority. 
3. Be self-sufficient. Don't ask him/her to get you things from the kitchen, and don't do each other's laundry, dishes, etc. 

Maybe he will have more suggestions for making a less serious relationship work. As for now, I'm done thinking about the delusion that has eluded me for the last two years of my life - the delusion that this relationship will be for a lifetime. I can't handle that fairy tale crumbling before me right now.

Grief is a process.